I had to respond to this post!
My mother died suddenly in 2010. It was very unexpected and there was a long period of grieving, as you can imagine.
All of the sudden, life was just very empty for me. Nothing was fun anymore. I stopped going out, preferring to stay at home alone and write.
Then, a friend loaned my a bunch of games. I had bought a play station, for home entertainment more than playing games. I was bored one weekend and popped in the cool looking one with the red and white cover. I had never played an RPG before and had no idea what to expect.
I loved it so much. I had no idea how immersive these things could be. When Wynne started talking to my Cousland girl, telling her that things would be alright, I literally cried. She reminded me so much of my mom...not that she was anything like her in reality. But I didn't realize how much I needed to hear words like that until I heard them. I realized what I was missing in my life and it really helped me...complete the grieving process.
I fell in love with Alistair, was desperate to get Sten to open up to me, sympathized with Leliana. I found a world to remind me of all the things I valued...loyalty, trust, and duty.
It is now many years later, and my adviser recently made a snarky comment to our lab group, saying that he knows some of us play video games and that it is immature and a waste of time. I wanted to yell at him. What does he know? That game carried me through a very dark place in my life. It sounds silly and melodramatic, but it did. i couldn't open up to real people, I couldn't bear talking about it with anyone. Dragon Age gave me place to dream again, a safe place to find the things I was starting to lose. It was beautiful and sad and funny and smart.
I truly don't think i would have been able to come back out of that darkness without something like that to make me smile.
So..yeah..these games mean alot to me. And I really don't care if folks think they are immature or silly. So are most people. So is the world, most of the time. I am just happy that they are still making them and I have a safe place to dream... ![]()





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