So, did anyone else fall for Inquisitor Ameridan? The minute I heard his voice, something just clicked inside me. And then those intense light grey eyes, that face, that gorgeously shaped face, and that cool hairstyle...the man is simply irresistible. So irresistible I couldn't help myself but begin to compare him to Abelas and think he had a certain allure, a certain charisma that the other elf, who was more solemn, seemed to miss.
But at that moment, I confess I felt dirty. I stared at the tatoos on his face and they painfully reminded me of another elf... It was as if I was betraying Abelas, preferring another man over him.
I was torn. Devastated. Both elves were honorable, dutiful, charming in their own way, nothing short of perfect. How could I prefer a man I had just met over him?
For a while, I struggled with my betrayal. I couldn't prefer one over the other. Ameridan was dead. Abelas still lived, although he was lost to the Inquisitor, having fled Mythal's temple. I was utterly lost. I didn't know what to do. I had already betrayed him in my mind. I pictured the Inq. in all sorts of crazy scenarios, going back in time to be with Ameridan and making him forget Telana...
And then I thought: why feel guilty at all? Why not adore them both and pretend my Inquisitor had relationships with both men, only on different occasions? This was not betrayal. This was overabundant passion for two elves that made her heart beat for the very same reasons.
Ever since then, I've been more at peace with the notion that yes, you can love Abelas and Ameridan, and let go of the feeling of guilt. For both are wonderful men living each in different times. And each with their unique, attractive personality.
That's all I wanted to share, really. I don't know if more Abelas fans out there also fell for Ameridan - even though he had quite a short time onscreen; such a pity
-, but those who did must've felt a bit of conflict for already liking Abelas.
Wow, what a relief. Thanks if you've read everything until the very end!