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[Jock Cranley]

the BSN sure is the best place for a topic like this

 

Gotta get attention somehow.

[Cassandra Saturn]

@Cass

Sounds like the final straw sort of thing. Well I'm glad you're able to get away from that toxic relationship.. It's too bad you had to go through so much to get to this point X3

@Sim

Mm your mom sounds pretty cool tbh. I wouldn't say me and my mom are bff's but I can hang out and spend time with her and still have fun. We've had some really go in depth talks over GoT and some other things.

here were so many straws that came up when she crossed the line. the problem is: money. I've been trying to get a job since September 18th and have been declined many times since then. but I had't yet given up. all my posts like my OP are on my personal website. pretty much detailing my life events 
 

Some people are like that. 
They want to be the topic of discussion at the dinner table.

that's true, she makes it big deal every time at family table each day/night.. even a year.

[Cassandra Saturn]

and here's also sad thing about it.. my ex-family is actually breaking apart slowly.. my ex-mother is arguing and fighting her own mother as well.

yet I'm arguing and fighting with my own ex-mother. and.. my ex-father whom I had't seen since I was born are actually in jail for like.. more than 20 years ago or more. he was bad guy back in his prime. stealing x number of cars and dealing with crime bosses like Mafia and Triads etc.

he was biggest target for police and FBI back then. he also did so many wrong things like getting every teen girl pregnant around the world since I was born as well. I actually have a lot of siblings out here because of him.

i'll tell you a bit of history. just before I was born.. my dad pushed my mother down the hospital stairs with me inside. when I was born, they said I would be deaf and paralyzed for rest of my life, but that changed because I did't give up. in few years later I was standing and walking, running on my own when I was 5 then. so this proves how hard it is for me to be put down by events like that. I just get back up and never give up, never surrender.

this is who I am. I am Cassandra Saturn.

[Isichar]

and here's also sad thing about it.. my ex-family is actually breaking apart slowly.. my ex-mother is arguing and fighting her own mother as well.

yet I'm arguing and fighting with my own ex-mother. and.. my ex-father whom I had't seen since I was born are actually in jail for like.. more than 20 years ago or more. he was bad guy back in his prime. stealing x number of cars and dealing with crime bosses like Mafia and Triads etc.

he was biggest target for police and FBI back then. he also did so many wrong things like getting every teen girl pregnant around the world since I was born as well. I actually have a lot of siblings out here because of him.

i'll tell you a bit of history. just before I was born.. my dad pushed my mother down the hospital stairs with me inside. when I was born, they said I would be deaf and paralyzed for rest of my life, but that changed because I did't give up. in few years later I was standing and walking, running on my own when I was 5 then. so this proves how hard it is for me to be put down by events like that. I just get back up and never give up, never surrender.

this is who I am. I am Cassandra Saturn.

 

Jesus christ that's bad (The pushing down the stairs thing... I mean the rest is bad too but that part is especially bad and I'm glad to hear you've been able to come out of that relatively ok)

 

Hey, it says a lot about a person from being able to go through all of that and come out the other end as the person you are. If nothing else I'm sure it's made you stronger. I hope moving helps give you a fresh start and you get some real support from people who actually care about you (those people are your true family imo)

 

I have to admit. Hearing this does make me appreciate my family just a bit more.. sure they drive me nuts but I know I can rely on them if things ever do go bad and that's something that should not be taken for granted.

[The Hierophant]

My condolences Cass. 

[Cassandra Saturn]

I'm so sorry to hear that. That's why i deeply respect you, You're very capable of looking after yourself, You're opinionated and you have your own views of the world. The kind of traits i deeply respect.

thank you, I have a lot of traits I got from my ex-mother and my ex-father to good use, for good. not for evil things like they did.

I used to volunteer for art school few years ago and at my ex-mother's former job as manager for storage business.

she works for Sertoma, but I work for better cause: making a world better with one act. like this post below.

Title: ARK - Future - Love

Cassandra: “I will always put others before me. then you can worry about me. it is my life’s goal that I will make this world a better place.. one thing at a time. it starts with act of random kindness.

my first act would be to give kids a memory that they can cherish. so.. after my change into woman fully, I plan to dress up as Korra from Legend of Korra, meeting people and kids, cosplayers alike at Comic Conventions or other Conventions. they can be proud and say, “hey I met Korra today at a convention” at their school or where they are at.”



"I also have been granted a vision of my future life by God last yesterday.. it was wonderful to see. it was an life of me as woman.

I was seen with my boyfriend and my two adopted kids at a house somewhere in Mountains, with Christmas tree, many presents underneath. in the background behind the tree.. shows a windows with falling snowflakes in background, everything is crystal white. white as a Christmas day. that was wonderful sight to see.

I do hope i’ll see it happen in my life with my boyfriend.”



"I love my boyfriend too much to let him go without my blessings and my love. I opened my heart to Daniel. he’s wonderful boyfriend of five months now.. I never want to lose that kind of feeling like I have with him.

when I’m around or with him. it’s so amazing…”

(Posted at 12/05/14)

[Isichar]

awwwwwwwwwww

 

I'm a sucker for sappy love emotions and all.

 

Now excuse me well I go watch The Mountain versus The Red Viper to counter this sappy feeling that caused.

[Cassandra Saturn]

awwwwwwwwwww
 
I'm a sucker for sappy love emotions and all.
 
Now excuse me well I go watch The Mountain versus The Red Viper to counter this sappy feeling that caused.

lol I love sappy love emotions and all too.
I'm sucker for it along with common interests with my boyfriend. he is very sweet guy he never thought or imagined that he'd get a girlfriend that's very interested in him.

that poor boy was having girl problems until I showed up and becoming part of his life, he is happy as hell. he even talked about those fantasy things he'd like to do with me after my change. I must admit, he's very creative in his own way

we have talked about doing cosplaying together at conventions and all, traveling the world doing good things etc etc.

[Isichar]

lol I love sappy love emotions and all too.
I'm sucker for it along with common interests with my boyfriend. he is very sweet guy he never thought or imagined that he'd get a girlfriend that's very interested in him.

that poor boy was having girl problems until I showed up and becoming part of his life, he is happy as hell. he even talked about those fantasy things he'd like to do with me after my change. I must admit, he's very creative in his own way

we have talked about doing cosplaying together at conventions and all, traveling the world doing good things etc etc.

 

See, that's where it's nice to find someone just as derpy as yourself that lets you be you even when that means just being silly (and at times just a bit stupid ) and having fun without having to worry. That's important in a relationship I think.

 

Especially moreso since you know you make a difference to him too.

[Cassandra Saturn]

See, that's where it's nice to find someone just as derpy as yourself that lets you be you even when that means just being silly (and at times just a bit stupid ) and having fun without having to worry. That's important in a relationship I think.

exactly. the girl problems he was having were girls did't talk to him and dissed him. all because of his height. he's really short, about 5'7 or less. short like a girl's height.

he is happy and doesn't mind having me as his tall girlfriend lol

[Isichar]

exactly. the girl problems he was having were girls did't talk to him and dissed him. all because of his height. he's really short, about 5'7 or less. short like a girl's height.

he is happy and doesn't mind having me as his tall girlfriend lol

 

I don't like the term "short" I prefer "vertically challenged"

 

I wouldn't care if the person I was dating was 3 feet tall or 8. As long as she could recite every witch and their familiar from the anime Madoka Magica and know every rune off by heart I'm a simple man with simple standards though.

[A Crusty Knight Of Colour]

ha

I know I'm terrible but I laughed uncontrollably at this.

Anyways my sympathies for your crap situation, Cassie.

[Cassandra Saturn]

Anyways my sympathies for your crap situation, Cassie.

thanks

[Angry_Elcor]

Sounds rough, dude. How does someone who qualifies as a fighter pilot who is cleared to make nighttime carrier landings also qualify for SSI at 18? Just curious.

[Cassandra Saturn]

I don't like the term "short" I prefer "vertically challenged"
 
I wouldn't care if the person I was dating was 3 feet tall or 8. As long as she could recite every witch and their familiar from the anime Madoka Magica and know every rune off by heart I'm a simple man with simple standards though.

true. and I would say age doesn't matter if you're truly in love with each other.


post below is partial copy of full discussion I had on IMVU it was about video games violence few months ago.

Saturn: i'm smart girl, i self taught myself. they say self taught people are stupid, but they're wrong. it only proves that they're much more better than educated people
Sexy: i agree
Sexy: it means that you want to learn
Saturn: correct
Saturn: why? because they got experience in reality than in books
Sexy: exactly
Saturn: the rule of thumb: if everything is according to the specs in a book, toss it out because you just realized that you made your specs better than it was in book
Saturn: lol.
Sexy: xD
Saturn: so, you see, a experience is important in our lives
Sexy: yeah
Saturn: we use it to fix things that was broken before, can be fixed again
Sexy: i already had a near death/disability in my life
Sexy: experience*
Saturn: oh i see, that's close call
Sexy: yeah
Sexy: i'm alive and well because of my fast reflexes.....thanks to racing games...
Saturn: oh yeah, video games are also training our reflexes to act fast, anyone who thinks video games are just games, they're stupid
Sexy: in my opinion racing games are the best ones
Sexy: exactly
Saturn: the video games we play are training our memory, our reflexes to act as we want it to do in a bad situation
Sexy: yeah
Sexy: minecraft helps with creativity
Corvin: Well, games are games per se. We act accordingly to what we have learned, our reflexes getting finely toned as a result. It has become a sport in its own right as you are training your mind and body to react how you want it to react
Saturn: even we have to know what we need to do in a disaster in reality through a disaster type video games too
Sexy: call of duty or battlefield are used to train strategic tactics
Saturn: people will not realize this but basically, they are entertaiment/training games for us in any way we want to view them as such
Sexy: yup
Sexy: ppl say that violent games make ppl violent......WRONG
Sexy: for example.....
Corvin: People have been violent for thousands of years...
Sexy: Korra did you watch the walking dead?
Corvin: I'm sure they didn't blame video games on WW1 and WW2
Sexy: exactly corvin
Sexy: and guns dont kill ppl
Sexy: ppl kill ppl with the aid of guns
Corvin: School shootings? "Oh, blame the video games" No...blame lousy parenting, lack of supervision and proper care of a human being >.>
Saturn: exactly
Sexy: agreed
Saturn: that's pretty much the point
Sexy: parents that are not responsible to even "own" a child
Saturn: and yes i play TWD on video game version too
Sexy: i meant tv series
Sexy: the game sucks
Corvin: Just like parents letting their 10 year olds play CoD..."My kid plays Cod and learns bad language and I don't like that" Well lady...maybe if you understood the ESRB rating, which by the by, is on par with the MOVIE RATINGS, maybe you might understand that if you ain't letting your kid watch an R rated movie, you wouldn't let him or her play or own an M rated game >.>
Saturn: yes i know what you meant
Sexy: i managed to get to the prison in like 5 minutes
Saturn: the game is made too easy lol
Sexy: yeah
Saturn: funny thing i did't turn out bad
Corvin: Damn, brb again lol
Saturn: when i was young, i still got M rated games rofl
Sexy: corvin but if you deny the child to play he/she will only want to play it more
Saturn: lol. anyway, I agree with Sexy
Sexy: i played gta vice city when i was.......ermmmm 12 or 13 i think
Sexy: my parents didnt care what kind of game i played...as long as it kept me busy and happy
Saturn: yes, but you have to let him/her understand why it's M rated or T rated for a reason that way you can talk to that child to understand why things in a game happen for a reason.

[BroBear Berbil]

This is very interesting.

[Isichar]

true. and I would say age doesn't matter if you're truly in love with each other.


post below is partial copy of full discussion I had on IMVU it was about video games violence few months ago.

 

*snip*

 

The poet in me believes love is boundless. It's not an emotion we can really control.

 

In regards to the whole violence in games a lot of the people who go on witch hunts against games for causing real world violence lack a fundamental understanding of the difference between causation and correlation. I agree with a lot of your views in regards to games, although I feel that way strongly about all forms of stories and/or art in general. What people will draw from a piece of media really comes down to that person. I mean if playing a game or watching a film causes someone to become violent then maybe, just maybe there was other issues going on there already. There are tons of different reasons for playing a game though. Many people only care about the game play mechanics, others feel it is a superior/more engaging form of storytelling, some just find it an easy way to unwind at the end of the day. Myself for example I see stories as a form of life in an abstract sense, I can learn from stories, cry and even care about what happens in one, furthermore a story contains the will of other people and is a form in which they can communicate something to you in their own way, which is why like you I get just a bit annoyed when someone says "it's just a game" or "it's just a story"

 

Anyways this probably qualifies as pretty far off topic so I'll leave it at that. Just me rambling a bit as usual >_>

[Kaiser Arian XVII]

[Cassandra Saturn]

Jesus you should turn this into a novel, not many people would believe it but hey at least you could make some profit from the harm caused to you.

you mean like life story book, nah I can't. it's my choice to decide. here's enough history that can really get a lot of people hurt or arrested. etc etc.

Edit:
it won't be for money or stuff like it.

[A Crusty Knight Of Colour]

"The Lifetime Network presents: Who I am, the Life and Story of Cassandra Saturn"

 

"Read, in her own words, the gripping struggle of a cute deaf ex-military pilot girl, as she comes of age and deals with the hardships of her first 18 years on Earth. Become engrossed in her constant conflict with her ex-mother, and weep with Cassandra as time and time again, Cassandra's ex-mother betrays her trust, demonstrating no remorse for her actions nor end to her callousness. Browse actual screencaps from her IMVU chats as she deftly and eloquently talks about her life with her friends and boyfriend online."

 

"But don't take our word for it, just look at the testimony of people who were impacted by this incredible story..."

 

"I'm shocked." - FrogDog

 

"(That) cut me deeper than 1,000 knives ever could." - King of Strong Style

 

"ha" - Dobbysaurus