Why I love SPAM
#1
Guest_DeckardWasADrunk_*
Posté 28 mai 2015 - 09:32
Guest_DeckardWasADrunk_*
I act like a fool and idiot on these forums because I know I will never meet anyone of you IRL and its a place I can just be stupid and whatever.
IRL I am not very talkative or outgoing. I do not have a lot of friends and spend most of my life alone in doors getting drunk and playing xbox.
For as long as I can remember I have hated myself. I hate myself so much that I think about suicide once or twice a day. I don't think I could actually ever do it, because as much as I do not want to live anymore, I don't want to die either.
I guess that is part of why I drink so much, to make myself feel better, and hoping one day when I pass out I don't wake up again.
So here is the reason I have 1000 alt accounts and keep coming back to BSN, because when I am here I feel like I have friends, I don't think about suicide as much, I actually laugh and have fun, especially when someone gets the joke I have made.
IDK just some real thoughts from a drunk bastard
#2
Posté 28 mai 2015 - 11:45
Deckard,
Well, you're always welcome here. Since you have the Mod power, you are unstoppable and must be feared.
I've had some rough patches in my life, even to the point where I've contemplated suicide, too. Oddly, I actually have a pretty good life IRL, and I did even when I felt really numb and alone (neither were physical feelings). Things turned around for me when I realized I wasn't the only one who felt the things I was feeling. From that point, everything started falling into place. I guess I was lucky.
Anyway, I appreciate your humor, as I'm sure a lot do, and I certainly hope you find some solace IRL, rather than turning to the glorious cesspool that is the forums. It really does feel like Cheers though, doesn't it?
I'd like to meat you in real life (no typo there, baby) and have a drink, even if you do like Jack Daniels.
Almost no one on the forums is like their forum persona in real life. If everyone acted IRL like they do online, 90% of the people you met would be total douchebags.
You should just grow some Shepard stubble and hit that Renegade button all day. You might feel better.
We'll bang, okay?
#3
Guest_DeckardWasADrunk_*
Posté 29 mai 2015 - 12:25
Guest_DeckardWasADrunk_*
#4
Posté 29 mai 2015 - 01:18
The biggest reason why I continue to come back to these forums is because of the people. This game and forum has given me a couple of friends that I'll probably have for life and many others I'll probably be playing games with for years to come. There is many more I hope to someday play with that are either on different consoles or live in different parts of the world that for whatever reason haven't been able to play together yet.
Anyways please excuse my ramblings as writing isn't one of my strong suits.
#5
Posté 29 mai 2015 - 02:28
Thanks man, it means a lot. You don't like Jack Daniels?
I love whiskey, but not Jack. My first time drinking hard liquor involved a few shots of tequila and half a bottle of Jack. I was trying to find out what my tolerance was, and I didn't know that hard liquor has a delayed reaction, which explains why I drank half the bottle.
However, there is a good ending to this story. The guy who I got the bottle of Jack from saved my butt cherry from a rather large, interested gay man.
For many years, I couldn't stand the smell of Jack.
Right now, my favorite is Lagavulin. I like the smoky, peaty scotches.
#6
Guest_DeckardWasADrunk_*
Posté 29 mai 2015 - 04:25
Guest_DeckardWasADrunk_*
I love whiskey, but not Jack. My first time drinking hard liquor involved a few shots of tequila and half a bottle of Jack. I was trying to find out what my tolerance was, and I didn't know that hard liquor has a delayed reaction, which explains why I drank half the bottle.
However, there is a good ending to this story. The guy who I got the bottle of Jack from saved my butt cherry from a rather large, interested gay man.
For many years, I couldn't stand the smell of Jack.
Right now, my favorite is Lagavulin. I like the smoky, peaty scotches.
Some guy wanted to **** jack's crapper? Lol
Thats a lot of booze for your first time damn. I haven't tried that scotch but i do like scotch. Id drink walker black every day if I could afford it
#7
Posté 29 mai 2015 - 05:08
Some guy wanted to **** jack's crapper? Lol
Thats a lot of booze for your first time damn. I haven't tried that scotch but i do like scotch. Id drink walker black every day if I could afford it
Walker used to be my favorite. Black is great every day, and Blue is amazingly smooth, but pretty expensive. Nice for special occasions.
Then I got into single malt scotches. Glenlivet was my favorite for a while, then Glenmorangie. I really enjoyed those for a long time, but then I tried Oban, Lagavulin, Laphroaig, and Ardbeg.
Oban is a highland whisky, and it's excellent.
The latter three are from the island of Islay. Islay whiskies are generally heavy on the peat, and some are nice and smoky.
Lagavulin is my favorite of all whiskies right now. It's got a huge smoky presence, and a long, complex finish.
Laphroaig is also quite smoky, maybe even bigger in the smokiness, but the finish is not very complex or long.
Ardbeg is not very smoky at all, but it is very clean and complex, and also has a long finish.
I was drinking a bottle of Lagavulin a week for a while, but it started to hurt the wallet. Now, I rarely drink, but I really enjoy it when I do. Gah, just thinking about it makes me want a sip.
Funny we're talking about this because I actually had a glass last night, the first in weeks.
#8
Posté 29 mai 2015 - 12:04
Though whenever I hear talk of meeting irl all I can see is a group of people trying their best not to be uncomfortable. That is until they all pull out their phones and start posting on the forum.
#9
Posté 29 mai 2015 - 03:21
Well, once you get over the fact that no one will ever look like you expect them to, it's all good.
#10
Guest_Chino_*
Posté 29 mai 2015 - 05:37
Guest_Chino_*
+1 for not being outgoing and rarely talkative irl. Why do you think a recreated my account after deleting it? 'Cause I missed the lols and idiocy and all of you hilarious scrubs.
This is the really the only place where I rarely post serious and constructive points. I actually avoid all the serious threads asking about builds, solos, etc ('cause I don't want to be a dick and ruin legitimate threads) and pretty much just goof around whenever stupid/troll threads pop up.
#11
Posté 30 mai 2015 - 09:25
I'm not sure why I'm still here. I remember saying that I'd never make an alt. account and yet here I am.
I'm actually pretty outgoing, but I guess one thing I like about this place is that I can a$$ around much more than IRL.
Anyway, depression sucks and I know some of the worst of it. It's a constant fight everyday just to make yourself get up in the morning. I think the most important thing is find a reason to push yourself and keep going. Life sucks big time, but as long as you have someone or something to work towards, it'll feel like it's not so bad and that life has some meaning. Anyway, you always have this place to cheer yourself up if you get down.
#12
Posté 15 janvier 2016 - 01:27
I'm just now reading all of these and it makes me kinda sad and wishing I was posted in here more often. I get really depressed too and I'm very socially awkward. I like coming here for the laughs and I like everyone here. Doubt anyone will see this since this whole group has kind of moved on. I miss Nat's shananigans.





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