I'm sorry for this post. And sorry, if this is considered spam.
But I really need to put something off my soul and I hope, this is okay in here for I don't know where else to go.
First of all:
I love Dragon Age. It's my favorite Game-series in the world.
Origins got me, I fell instantly in love, exploring the world with my female mage warden and loved it.
Me and Dragon Age Inquisition/roleplaying:
Dragon Age Inquisition is a great game.
I finished it two times, the last time with all DLCs included.
Being an elven mage is my favorite choice of race/class. So I chose this two times.
I chose the Solas romance (or did it chose me?). I do like Cullen, for he was one of the first persons I met in DAO and I really love how this character developed throughout the whole series.
But I try to follow one way for my character. One strict line.
As a former pen&paper-roleplayer it is really important for me to play authentic. To differ between me and my characters, and the choices (but I always make them up with me, can't take a bad decision, those are leaving me sleepless).
The end of DAI was great, I liked it. It was hard being alone while other players enjoyed their romances, but I was fine with that, because... really, Solas told me since the very first minute that this isn't going to work. That's just fair. I was okay, ending the game - the closure of the story, the boss battle, having Morrigan at my side again. Simply great.
I started playing it again instantly, this time on Computer (for there were no DLCs for the ps3-edition and the ps3-loadingsscreens were just killing me). Nice graphics, I visited that detailed world, created with so much love again.
A hundred hours again.
I laughed, I cried. Once again: One of the greatest journeys I ever took.
And at the end of Trespasser (which is a great DLC btw.)
My Inquisitor stood there and got... nothing.
1. No love
Don't get me wrong. The Solas romance is great, the greatest, deepest most mature one in my opinion.
I don't think I'll ever be able to go through another one, for I want to know and see and understand everything that's connected. Of course this roots in my love for the elves in DA. I could not take having a "nice and simple" love after experiencing this.
But still. I knew there would be no Happy Ending. I love how the developers dealt with it and what they put in the credits/the story pieces which are shown after finishing. But this was so very hart to take for me, for my Inqusitor.
I felt sad for her being left alone at the end.
Not able to follow, not able to safe him from himself (but still trying for what I love her).
I guess she would have left the Inquisition and her team instantly if he had asked for it. He didn't and he never would.
2. No home/roots
While playing DAI, I wondered if my Inquisitor is going to go back to her clan after defeating Corypheus and saving the word.
Now it seems impossible. She knows the truth, knows that everything the Dalish are living for is a lie, that they are just... long forgotten slaves... not on a journey but somehow escaping their past, unable to face their future.
A hollow life.
Abelas said, the Dalish are shadows, hiding under their vallaslin. Maybe he's just right.
3. No Inquisition
I could have chosen to keep the Inquisition going. Yeah. But controlled by the church?
Only for the sake of politicians shutting their mouth? I was so angry.
My Inquisitor gave everything. She literally gave her arm for saving the word, closing the breach, for everything....
only to be a punching ball for frustrated politicians.
After everything she got to know, after being left by Solas, after loosing her arm...
She was angry. She disbanded the inquisition.
At the beginning of Trespasser, I really thought I would keep it.
Leliana brought the thought of "knowing, when to lay down your sword" in my mind.
4. No arm
This one really shocked me. I didn't expect that. But it was a logical thing, dealing with such a power without any consequences... no, that is not realistic, not fair. I guess I'm okay with that for it is a consequence of everything I got and did before.
What disturbs me is:
This disarms the Inquisitor. The special power she got is gone. Her "trademark" is gone.
And I'm also pretty sure that fighting isn't easy with only one arm left (what are two-handed-warriors going to do? Rogues?)
Bioware made itself very clear: The Inquisitor's time is over.
It has always been like that in DA-Games, new hero every time,
This is not Mass Effect.
But this time, in this combination of every story detail, it left me somehow unsatisfied. I feel like I (or rather my Inquisitor) is not going to be able to end her very own story. The end is somehow open, my character is not and never will be on peace.
5. At the very end...
... everything is lost. My Inquisitor is no Inquisitor anymore. She lost her love, her arm. She lost everything she used to believe in and has to deal with a big and bitter truth about her people, her culture, her everything...
This is the consequence of all my decisions.
Each one of them is logical, I can draw the line and I really think they are prepared and thoughtful.
But... "but".
Me at the end of Inquisition:
If I had chosen to play.. for example as a non-elvish andrastian Templar, living the happy ended-Cullen-romance and put the services of my Inquisition gladly in the hands of the chantry, the ending would have been happier and in a way there would have been a closure. Some peace of mind. Of course, Solas would be still on the loose, but this wouldn't hurt in a personal way. And all the things about the fade, the elves... they would not touched my Inquisitor this bad.
I don't want to miss a single thing I learned during my playthrough.
I've got no regrets.
But now, I really don't know if and when I'm able to go through DAI again.
Or through another part of the series, for I learned so much about things I... I knew since my very first moment in Origins. I don't feel like I could ever put a (future)-warden mage though the fade-eximanination in the circle at the very beginning again. Or play the Dalish-Origin again.
...............
Thank you for reading this. It really feels good to tell this to people who know the game and are able to understand what I'm saying and thinking.
Sorry for grammar mistakes, English isn't my mother tongue. And sorry for this long and somehow sad/negative post.





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