Forgive the rant... mods feel free to move or delete if this is the wrong place. Just must vent.
...I think my Player Characters just have a terrible history of falling head over heals for the worst possible person at the worst possible moment.
My Amell had a flippant and very ill-advised crush on Jowen. They'd joined the circle at the same time, he was the first friend she ever made, and she just assumed that they'd end up a couple eventually. She...was incorrect in this assumption.
Then she loved Alistair with gusto, and didn't know it was even possible to be so happy... but then she spared Loghain, believing in second chances, and he declared himself Anora's betrothed and never even said goodbye to her.
Crushed, she fell in with Liliana, the one person who always lifted her spirits. And then died fighting the arch-demon, turning that gentle chantry sister into a bloody-minded operator. Well done, Amell. Saddest thing? Her last thoughts were for Alistair... then as she was dying, she saw Liliana's horrified face and thought 'damn, I couldn't even get THAT right.' They made a statue of her, and she died thinking of herself as a f***-up.
And Hawke...well Hawke loved Anders, and he killed hundreds of people. The stupid bloody bastard. She stuck a knife in him. She'd do it all over again too. Like, if he suddenly there, and walking right towards her going "hello," she'd go, "STAB!" Well, no. She'd judo-throw him into bed first, and stab him after that. Stupid as****e. She misses him. Every day.
.... And my Inquisitor... well, she's an elven mage with a lot of curiosity about magic and spirits and the world in general. See if you can guess what happened to her! Really! You will never guess! ... Yep!... it did not end well! Surprised??
...Yeah. MAYBE she'll be ok, given time...and therapy. Do they have therapy in Thedas? Can they invent it just for her? Or psychiatric medication? Ben and Jerry's? Maybe she'll just drink herself into oblivion. That's safe, because drunk texting doesn't exist. It's worth a shot, right? No, then she'll pass out and she'll sleep, and she'll dream, and she never wants to think about dreaming ever again, or the Fade, or the gods, or... crap. FML.
.... I don't even plan for it to go this way. It just seems to happen. I don't know what this means for me as a player or a person but I guess it's a good thing I'm single. Love is distressing.
Just had to vent. Thanks.





Retour en haut









