Bah, Shenzi you beat me - I thought I had killed the thread.
Shenzi wrote...
I actually never had planned on writing any fic but one day I tossed out in this thread the scene I had in my head because I hadn't seen anyone deal with it yet which is the same thing you're working on now, Kaidan's response to being hit over the head with the project Lazarus data.
I received much encouragement to write the fic along with several willing victims to read it as I wrote it so even feeling rather embarrassed about my lack of writing skills I sat down and wrote it over the course of a few days and even put it up on fanfic.net.
We talked earlier about behavior due to the anonymity of the internet well I would never have been willing to have people looking at writing without it 
True, it's much easier to publish something on the net without throwing the worried and embarrassed looks at the critical reader of your texts. While I never really planned to write, I just happened to do so and I was actually brave enough to send one of my stories to a friend.
He didn't like it 100% but also gave me very valuable constructive criticism which I was very grateful for. Then I was and still am writing a original fiction... which is aimed at a female reader group, younger or at young at heart, and the only one I had around here who I could abuse to beta-read was my ex bf.
Of course, it was not his genre and the way he talked about it... I lost a lot of confidence.
Even when I posted a little part in here - there was no reaction whatsoever and I thought 'Yay, I am doomed!!'
But eventually, I dared it... after the letter, I went to ff.net and just gave it a try.
I might not be very good or even have a great story going but reviews, tips and ideas for improvements help me to go on. I won't give up, even if there are days when my confindence tries to dig a hole somewhere beneath the basement to hide in.
Being ignored in discussions with friends and family, or even on here fuel those bad days, but then again I can usually use them to write the darker passages of my story.
And why I just started to tell you half my life... I have no idea. Sorry!