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[Statulos]

You´re not, Seaglom. And I´m not elaborating. Period.

[Godak]

Seagloom wrote...

Not really, no. I'll probably never be content with who I am. Although I look forward to a few things I doubt they'll change my life completely. Normal people aren't disturbing to me, perhaps because I'm an abomination next to everyone else around here. It's too easy for me to notice my differences.

My facetious comment backfired, and I feel awful.

1. It's important to never be content with who you are. Self-improvement is something you should be proud to strive for.

2. You are not an abomination (And if you are, you better be sexy as all f^_^ck ).

3. What's so bad about noticing differences?

[addiction21]

Godak wrote...

Seagloom wrote...

Not really, no. I'll probably never be content with who I am. Although I look forward to a few things I doubt they'll change my life completely. Normal people aren't disturbing to me, perhaps because I'm an abomination next to everyone else around here. It's too easy for me to notice my differences.

My facetious comment backfired, and I feel awful.

1. It's important to never be content with who you are. Self-improvement is something you should be proud to strive for.

2. You are not an abomination (And if you are, you better be sexy as all f^_^ck ).

3. What's so bad about noticing differences?

1. Never expect to be perfect.
2. Amominations are hawt...
3. ummmm.... I like waffles?

[addiction21]

Dark Lilith wrote...

Captain Cornhole wrote...

Dark Lilith wrote...

come to my place,I'll give you a special bondage session you'll never forget hehehe

Only if your a attractive brunette. I LIKE WOMEN!  Call me  tehe

you tell me? good enough?

You need some meat on those collar bones... no offense it is one of my problems with the female dao models also...

[Seagloom]

That's sweet, Statulos. I should clarify something though...



I have no serious problems with standing apart from others in my community. Sure, I might get depression out of it now and then, and I can be fairly self deprecating at times, but I don't think they're better than me or some such. It's just... I stand out for so many reasons here. Not just sexual orientation and... other stuff. Almost everything. I'm olive skinned, almost everyone around here is white. Not a big deal normally, but I have experienced subtle racist behavior before. I'm agnostic and independent and there are quite a few christians and republicans about. In fact there used to be a certain infamous hate group with a branch here. This post is skirting taboo forum topics, so I'll stop it there and will not respond to any replies on those things.



Put that with all my other stuff, from lifestyle to music, to gaming and so on and I tend to stand out if I do anything more than the bare minimum expected public behavior. It's only in my small town, though, and the houses are very far apart. There are more eclectic towns a few minutes' drive away where no one cares and it's a lot closer to NYC. So yeah, in my environment I sure as heck don't feel normal.

[Seagloom]

Godak wrote...

My facetious comment backfired, and I feel awful.

1. It's important to never be content with who you are. Self-improvement is something you should be proud to strive for.

2. You are not an abomination (And if you are, you better be sexy as all f^_^ck ).

3. What's so bad about noticing differences?

I should really head to bed. If there wasn't so much to catch up on...

1 - I wish I could be content though! Self improvement is an admirable goal and I'll probably always strive for that, but it'd be nice to feel happy too.

2 - A social abomination I should say. Looks wise, I'm not lacking in confidence. Although my younger sister looks better, I think.

3 - Nothing really, unless the only one that's different is you... or me in this case. Then it's all awkward.

[Statulos]

Probably it does not help at all but I can tell you that I understand your position for a very simple reason: I have been attacked and smashed by **** skinheads for several of the above reasons. And it´s also true that they got what they deserve...

[Godak]

Seagloom wrote...

Godak wrote...

My facetious comment backfired, and I feel awful.

1. It's important to never be content with who you are. Self-improvement is something you should be proud to strive for.

2. You are not an abomination (And if you are, you better be sexy as all f^_^ck ).

3. What's so bad about noticing differences?

I should really head to bed. If there wasn't so much to catch up on...

1 - I wish I could be content though! Self improvement is an admirable goal and I'll probably always strive for that, but it'd be nice to feel happy too.

2 - A social abomination I should say. Looks wise, I'm not lacking in confidence. Although my younger sister looks better, I think.

3 - Nothing really, unless the only one that's different is you... or me in this case. Then it's all awkward.

1. I think happiness comes after you've found a place in your life where you're comfortable with what and who you are. You're on the right track, just keep at it.

2. Why do you think you're a social abomination? Do people come up to you and say, "Hey, chicky, you really suck at human interactions on the most basic level. I just wanted to take the time out of my day to come and tell you that. Adios!"?

If so, you should probably consider moving to more nurturing environments. Is there anyway to find out the density of   d!ckheads in your area? Hmm...That would be really helpful.

Also: glad to hear that you look good!

3. Oh, come on! You are NOT the only one that's different. It may feel that way at times, but it's just something you have to work through. I've moved around a fair bit, and I've always had those times when I felt like everyone was in the same group, and I was the odd man out.

Modifié par Godak, 14 mars 2010 - 04:08 .

[Seagloom]

@Godak - I'll just reply to your third point this time. The second would drag this into forbidden territory, I think. I was referring to myself and this area. Of course there are others in identical or worse situations than I elsewhere, or perhaps even here... although I haven't met them. Next to everyone I've met and seen around though, I *do* feel different on several levels. When I'm Manhattan or Queens? Not so much.

@Statulos - That must have sucked, to understate it substantially. I've never been through anything that harsh. Glad you got through it okay.

Anyway um... this is seriously derailing now. I won't post further on this subject.

Modifié par Seagloom, 14 mars 2010 - 04:15 .

[Seagloom]

randumb vanguard wrote...

so is this actually  how you look or is it just a random picture? I need to know...

That's how she looks. She's posted many a pic in various threads.

Modifié par Seagloom, 14 mars 2010 - 04:18 .

[Godak]

Seagloom wrote...

When I'm Manhattan or Queens? Not so much.

I'm sorry, but that made me laugh.

[Seagloom]

Godak wrote...

Seagloom wrote...

When I'm Manhattan or Queens? Not so much.

I'm sorry, but that made me laugh.

If you had to apologize...

[Statulos]

Seagloom wrote...

@Godak - I'll just reply to your third point this time. The second would drag this into forbidden territory, I think. I was referring to myself and this area. Of course there are others in identical or worse situations than I elsewhere, or perhaps even here... although I haven't met them. Next to everyone I've met and seen around though, I *do* feel different on several levels. When I'm Manhattan or Queens? Not so much.

@Statulos - That must have sucked, to understate it substantially. I've never been through anything that harsh. Glad you got through it okay.

Anyway um... this is seriously derailing now. I won't post further on this subject.

Only the first broken rib hurts. When you feel the second cracking, adrenaline helps you kicking back. The bad part was the "hangover" of pain the day after.

[addiction21]

Statulos wrote...

Only the first broken rib hurts. When you feel the second cracking, adrenaline helps you kicking back. The bad part was the "hangover" of pain the day after.

The day after? Anytime I broke/cracked ribs I did not want to breath for the next few weeks. You do kinda become numb to that kind of pain but do not let your mind wander towards it...

[Statulos]

addiction21 wrote...

Statulos wrote...

Only the first broken rib hurts. When you feel the second cracking, adrenaline helps you kicking back. The bad part was the "hangover" of pain the day after.

The day after? Anytime I broke/cracked ribs I did not want to breath for the next few weeks. You do kinda become numb to that kind of pain but do not let your mind wander towards it...

Adrenaline is the name of the game. When your body pumps it pain gets tolerable, blood runs faster and you kick back.

And then you´re taken to emergencies for X rays, sedated after the tests and you wake up in a bed being in some of the worst pains and exhaustion feelings. Breathing aches, your haed aches, damn, even your ID card aches!

[addiction21]

Statulos wrote...

addiction21 wrote...

Statulos wrote...

Only the first broken rib hurts. When you feel the second cracking, adrenaline helps you kicking back. The bad part was the "hangover" of pain the day after.

The day after? Anytime I broke/cracked ribs I did not want to breath for the next few weeks. You do kinda become numb to that kind of pain but do not let your mind wander towards it...

Adrenaline is the name of the game. When your body pumps it pain gets tolerable, blood runs faster and you kick back.

And then you´re taken to emergencies for X rays, sedated after the tests and you wake up in a bed being in some of the worst pains and exhaustion feelings. Breathing aches, your haed aches, damn, even your ID card aches!

You left out your wallet

Reminds me of when I was 18 and in a car accident I fractured two vertibre, bruised a rib, broke another, and shattered my left thumb.
Let me tell you how they put you in a cast SUCKS! They use two tables with a space inbetween. That space is where you midsection is. While they wrap you in the cast there is another person pushing down on your spine to get the curve right. No amount of pain meds makes that feel alright. Of course it is supposed to be better then the old way which was hanging you by your arms from the ceiling.
Oh well at least I got a neat helicopter ride to to UMMC shock truama that I do not remember...

[Robalicious_13]

<---- March 13th 1990!

Lucky 13!!!

[Ponce de Leon]

Yeah man! 1990 ****ing pride! Uhh, that sounded low, even from me!



Still, why is everyone going against Celrath (sp?)? Poor guy. Let's be equivalent shall we? *casts imprisonment on everyone in this thread*

There, happy everyone?

[Dark Lilith]

dark-lauron wrote...

Yeah man! 1990 ****ing pride! Uhh, that sounded low, even from me!

Still, why is everyone going against Celrath (sp?)? Poor guy. Let's be equivalent shall we? *casts imprisonment on everyone in this thread*
There, happy everyone?

I was already happy!

[Seagloom]

dark-lauron wrote...

Yeah man! 1990 ****ing pride! Uhh, that sounded low, even from me!

Still, why is everyone going against Celrath (sp?)? Poor guy. Let's be equivalent shall we? *casts imprisonment on everyone in this thread*
There, happy everyone?

I erm... had Spell Immunity: Abjuration up. Uh, yeah. >.>

Also, I wasn't that mean to Celrath... was I? If so I apologize.

[Ponce de Leon]

Damn your spell immunity abjuration! *casts lower resist 3 times, followed by 6 Abi Dalzim's Horrid Wiltings*

Oh, I so love constant improved alacrity!

Still, I don't know if you were. I only am making everyone happy by killing you all, bwahahah!

[Seagloom]

Blast it. You got me! I may die here, but I'm not going without a parting gift...

~Smiles wickedly, blood trickling from her mouth, as Chain Contingency activates and leaves behind three Hakeashar~

Modifié par Seagloom, 14 mars 2010 - 02:04 .